Saddle Sore

This last week I rode a bike…I hate it. 

Because I’m a freakishly tall person, when I ride the bike my legs kick up my skirt and then the wind takes care of the rest and…well, let’s just say that by the time I leave Wels, the whole city will have seen my religion. 

But but also hurts…a lot. 

But it’s all good. Nothing really overly exciting happened this past week, well, since Wednesday when I emailed. 

We went to Wien twice because we had to go get Sister Lin’s visa. 

The first time we went down, on Monday, we made it to the place a minute after noon, right as they were closing and locking the doors. It was really very stressful. 

But we got the okay to buy summer tickets, so we pay 69 euro for a sommer ticket and we can get on any train in Austria without buying a ticket with a specific destination. 

And so we weren’t worried about going to Wien. And so on Thursday we set off again, only earlier this time. We got there, got the visa and headed out with no problems. It was just the stress of getting to Wien twice in a week that was the stress. 

And so, on Friday we went to the police station (where Sister Lin was summoned) and they showed the police her visa and everything and it was all good! They just copied it and told her they were done. 
That was a big relief!

Yesterday was fast and testimony meeting, which is really always interesting…

There was a woman that got up and started talking about her grandson in Africa and he came close to a crocodile, and then he saw the baby crocodile and it was so cute! And then she closed her testimony. 

Everyone in the congregation was laughing hysterically. She is just the funniest little woman you’ve ever met. She doesn’t try to be, but she always talks about things like they’re really dramatic and…oh, she’s hysterical. Obliviously hysterical, but hysterical none-the-less.

Anyway…

We did have a really dark and awful lesson on Friday. With West. He brought out things about polygamy. And he had this website that was called, “Remembering the Wives of Joseph Smith.”

I just hate this question. 

I don’t understand entirely why the early saints had a lot of wives. I don’t understand it at all, and I don’t know that, in this life, that I will ever understand it. What I do understand is that that question is not vital to conversion in the church.

I just hate these “How far is Kolob?” questions. They just don’t make sense. And if you dwell on it, you just get confused and shaky and then  you’re not sure what to do with your life. 

Which is why I don’t like to talk about it. When we talk about our lessons people keep bringing it up and it bothers me because it makes me feel uncomfortable…

Anyway. 

Spiritual thoughts! You’re gonna get a lot of them because I have a lot of time to write this email today! Woo!

“I think that if God forgives us, we must forgive ourselves. Otherwise it’s almost like setting up ourselves as a higher tribunal than Him.”

-C.S. Lewis

I love this quote. I found it when I was having a hard time forgiving myself for something that I’d done and when I read it I felt instantly better. It’s amazing when you realize in that moment that you can be forgiven for something,  but sometimes it’s hard when you still don’t feel okay because you haven’t forgiven yourself. 

This quote also makes me a little bit afraid not to forgive myself, because I’m not higher or better than God. 

“I want it absolutely clear when I stand before the judgment bar of God that I declared tot he world that the Book of Mormon is true.”

-Jeffery R. Holland

I don’t know that I will ever have the chance to declare on world-wide broadcasted television that I know that Book of Mormon is true, but I’m declaring it now. I know that it’s true because I’ve read it. 
I got my answer that the Book of Mormon is true when I was fifteen. 

I had been told that I needed to read it, I had been told that I needed to know what was inside this book was true. And so I read through the Book of Mormon, trying and reading and thinking about it, and trying to decide if it was true or not. I prayed every night about it and I thought that it felt good, but I still wasn’t sure. 

I finished the last verse of Moroni 10 and I knelt down and prayed and I asked Heavenly Father to tell me that this book was true because I wanted to know. 

I sat there and waited for some burning pillar of light, maybe a vision or a voice from heaven. I waited and waited and I merely had the thought to start again. 

A little frustrated I pulled my scriptures over to me and flipped to the beginning:

 I, Nephi, having been born of goodly parents, therefore I was taught somewhat in all the learning of my father; and having seen many afflictions in the course of my days, nevertheless, having been highly favored of the Lord in all my days; yea, having had a great knowledge of the goodness and the mysteries of God, therefore I make a record of my proceedings in my days.

 Yea, I make a record in the language of my father, which consists of the learning of the Jews and the language of the Egyptians.

And then I came to the verse that changed my life forever. 

And I know that the record which I make is true…

And in that moment I knew it was true too. 

There was no flaming pillar in the sky, no vision, to heavenly angels singing a hallelujah chorus. Just the small still voice crying from words written 2600 years before, I know that the record which I make is true.

“No wicked man could write such a book as this; and no good man would write it, unless it were true and he were commanded of God to do so.” 

-George Cannon (speaking about the Book of Mormon)

“Have the moral courage to make your actions consistent with  your knowledge of right and wrong.”

“For behold, I have refined thee, I have chosen thee in the furnace of affliction.”

-1 Nephi 20:10

“Speak to the critics with confidence and kindness. Do not be angered toward them. Let you life influence the lives of others for good.” -Dieter F. Uchtdorf.

“In my Gethsemane and in yours, WE ARE NOT ALONE. The Savior will not leave us, neither will He sleep.” -Jeffery R. Holland

“If you trust Him enough to ‘go and do’  your trust will grow and over time you will realize that He trusts you too.” -President Henry B. Eyring

“To know someone here or there with whom you feel there is an understanding in spite of distances or thoughts unexpressed-that can make this life a garden.” -Goethe

“Through prayer, we borrow strength, love, and light at the very door of eternity.” -Bruce D. Porter

“It is as if we have been sitting in a cubicle in the Great and Spacious building, in front of a TV on which the only thing that plays is a never ending soap opera of our own inadequacy.” -Elder Jeffery R. Holland.

I just love this so much! Cause there are times when I’m feeling particularly low about myself that I just feel so awful and it’s because I’ve let myself only see my weaknesses. And then it gets so frustrating! But it’s just because when Lucifer can’t get us through sin, or even when he does, he just wants us to become even more low and he just feeds us pitty pie on a silver platter. 

But as Elder Holland also said, “The race is against sin, not each other.” 

When I think of this I just imagine a bunch of runners trying to take down the bully and they just tackle him to the ground and drag him off the track. 

But that wouldn’t be Christlike, so…I guess that’s not how it would go down. 😀

“No force in the entire world can stop the force of God.” -Thomas S. Monson

When I think of this I think of the missionary force in the world right now! Oh, it’s so crazy! How incredible is that!!!!!! 

I love it so much! I can’t believe that the gospel is going out into the world in such great numbers! I think it’ll be really interesting to see the convert numbers next year at the April General Conference!

“And He gathereth His children from the four corners of the earth, and he numbereth His sheep, and they know Him; and there shall be one fold and one shepherd; and He shall feed them and in Him they shall find pasture.” -1 Nephi 22:25

This is probably one of my favorite scriptures. Even though I hate sheep, just the idea of it is really beautiful. I just can see myself feeling peace and love in a warm cozy field of grass and living and being happy. That’s what Christ offers. Except it’s eternal life. 

“There is nothing that we are enduring that Jesus does not understand, and He waits for us to go to our Heavenly father in prayer. I testify that if we will be obedient and if we are diligent, our prayers will be answered, or problems will diminish, our fears will dissipate, light will come upon us, the darkness of despair will be dispersed, and we will be close to the Lord and feel of His love and of the comfort of the Holy Ghost.” -Elder Robert D. Hales

“We are too easily distracted from our assignment of preparing for the coming of the Lord…we forget that if we are righteous, the Lord will either not suffer our enemies to come upon us…or He will fight our battles for us.” -President Spencer W. Kimball

Things are hard, but I know that the Lord is there for me. I can always have faith in him.

Love,

Lillie

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