Seek that ye may find

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how unpredictable this life is. Since I’ve been on my mission it’s been particularly frustrating, not knowing if the next phone call could send you into another country, or send you to another city to meet some unknown person. Or the next call could just send the person that you’ve become really good friends with off to another part of the country. 

But that’s just how life is as well. Due to outside forces life can never be predicted, managed, or controlled.

We as humans must simply adapt, something that thousands of years of evolution to climates, cultures, and oppression has proved that adaption is something at which we excel. One moment your life could be perfectly happy and nothing could be wrong in your world, until the wrong jenga piece is pulled out of the tower and it comes crashing down. 

From our human perspective, the crashing of the tower of normalcy, or life as we know it, is distressing and puts us off course. It makes us doubt everything that we’ve ever known and we become victim to the darkness of the unknown. Many times we find ourselves alone, wandering for hours, following some hope or dream or flicker of light somewhere in the distance. 

We can wander around for hours, in impenatrable mists of gloom and confusion because we are unsure what to do with ourselves and this situation we’ve found ourselves in. But just like Lehi, we find ourselves praying to God, asking for his help. When the confusion and the darkness of the world pushes in around you, you just have to remember to pray. 

Lehi says:
And after I had traveled for the space of many hours in darkness, I began to pray unto the Lord that he would have amercy on me, according to the multitude of his tender mercies.

 9 And it came to pass after I had prayed unto the Lord I beheld a large and spacious afield.

After he prayed he could see again. Things came to his light and knowledge and it’s only after we’ve prayed and asked for the mercies of the Lord to take care of us that we find ourselves in the position to see the tree and to see what he’s asked of us. It’s then that we realize our goal and where we need to go. What our goal is. 

If we have to look back, let us look back simply for the cause of motivating ourselves to see how far we’ve come, but let us not forget that the Lord has greater things planned ahead than what He has already given us. 

We must first seek, so we can find. 

Love

Lillie

PS: Sister Christianson is going to Passau to work with Sister Smith, the Sister Smith from the MTC that was my saving grace. Sister Armstrong is coming to Augsburg from Graz. 

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